I am a do-er. A verb girl.
So it was that I found myself nixing all the words I'd been thinking about as a guiding word for 2014 and writing this:
"...I began to listen to the now not-so-small voice inside of me that directed my word for 2014 was to be a verb.
A verb that could encapsulate many of the nouns on the busy collage of words that had popped into my mind and played tug-of-war my with heart over the past few weeks. One that would help me grow as God's child. As a unique individual. As a wife. As a mom. Even as a homemaker and as a partial provider for our family. A word that, ironically, the Spirit been trying to reach me with the entire time I had prayed at Adoration and in all the time since.
When I finally heard the word, I laughed.
LISTEN is the word.
Stop thinking. Cease searching. Pause praying. Just listen. To your children. To your husband. To your heart. To. Your. God."
Today, as I reflect upon 2014 and look forward to 2015, I smile.
I may not have always stopped thinking, ceased searching and paused praying long enough to truly listen on every occasion I could have in 2014. But, I listened more often than I had before.
I still may not be the best version of myself that I can be. In fact, have plenty of room to grow as a Child of God, wife, mom, homemaker and more. But, I am growing.
And in 2015 I shall grow more and I continue to listen.
In fact, over the past few weeks, I've become quite proficient at listening through the din of daily thoughts and activities at times. And, in doing so, I have heard a number of words in my heart and in my mind as possible guiding words for 2015, but it wasn't until today that I heard THE word.
So often I tell my children that I want them to listen and act. I know that my Father wants the same of me. Not just to listen. Not even just to acknowledge that I have heard. But to act.
To act upon each of the roles I am called to in my present existence.
To act with immediate and intentional choice each time I answer one of my own favorite questions -- "What can I do to make this moment better?"
To act on the stirrings of soul that I am becoming more and more aware of.
To act with love, trust, faith, purpose, integrity, virtue...